Well I did it.
|Sarah and I before the marathon.|
I pushed my body and my mind to the limit and I cannot tell you how pleased I am that it's over. And how very very sore I am.
I had a couple of personal goals in my head that I wanted to achieve. And all throughout running, I just keep telling myself in my head "it's only 4 hours or so of pain and I will only do this once in my life, don't waste this experience." I didn't want to be disappointed that I didn't push myself to the limit - "SO DON'T GIVE UP!"
At 19 miles seeing my friends and family.
I wanted to run the whole way and I did. I cannot tell you how much I wanted to stop running and walk, the feeling was overwhelming (especially the last 6.2 miles) but I knew that if I stopped it would have been almost impossible to start running again. I've had problems with my knees during training and I took pain killers before and during the marathon to get me through. I stopped once before at 15 miles in a 20 mile training run and couldn't start running again, I had to stop a stranger and ask to borrow his phone to call my husband to pick me up (he obviously took pity on me and decided a hobbling crying lady was in no fit state to nick his mobile). Also I said to everyone before the marathon my goal was just to get round, but in my head I wanted to achieve a time around 4 and 1/2 hrs because I thought I could do that if I pushed myself. And for my first marathon a time of 4.22 I am very happy with.
For anyone who wants to run the marathon what I will say is - it's the hours of training that are the really tough bit. Sacrificing nights on sofa watching tv with your loved one after a long day at work and/ or kids is a head fuck. Or days out at the weekend with the kids sometimes have to be done without you, because you have a long run that you have to complete. And then there's the recovery time of course. If like me you have a young family you have to have the support and understanding from those around you otherwise it's a battle too hard I think. It would break my heart when my daughter used to cry 'I wish mummy didn't have to run again' but I knew that what I was doing will eventually outweigh all the negatives. I love that I've showed my daughters that I can achieve something amazing through hard work and dedication. Not to mention the associated other health benefits of exercise seeping into their little minds unconsciously.
Luckily I have no photos of me after the marathon.
I just want to say thank you to everyone that supported me, your words, pats on the back, donations have helped me a huge amount and I am so grateful. So a massive THANK YOU!
Before Laura knew her cancer was terminal she said she wanted to run the marathon. Well Laura I did and I did it because you couldn't and I did it because thinking of you helped push me on. And we raised over £2000 to date for Laura's fund at Saint Francis Hospice. And that is what it was really all about.
There is still time to donate if you would like to:
And that is the last you'll hear about it I promise.